Geez!

Wow... I can't even believe how long it has been since I wrote an entry here on my journal. I wrote and programmed this whole website when I was only 13 years old in middle school, but now I'm 18 and just finished my first semester of college at UC Berkeley. Crazy!

It's crazy that so much time has passed. I can't say it went by fast or anything, since starting this journal definitely feels like it happened a very, very long time ago. What's really cool about this though is that I've had this blog longer than I've been a member of any social networking site like Myspace or Facebook, and it's the longest and most comprehensive record of my existence. I think my attitude towards this journal has definitely changed a bit over the years that I've had it; I started it as kind of an outlet for my interest in HTML scripting and as sort of an indie way to do social networking because my parents didn't want me to have a myspace. (Actually thank God I didn't create a myspace page and use it for blogging! How totally awkward would that have been!!) I suppose another reason for making my own journal from scratch was to impress my peers with my creativity and technical skills so that they might think I was cool and make their own too or something haha.

However, now I kind of appreciate it as a sort of way to revisit my past and recount memories more easily. In a weird way, having this journal has been sort of a way of recording and saving my personality so I can compare my personality now with previous versions of itself. The benefit of doing this, in kind of an abstract sense, is that I can revert parts of my personality to what they used to be if I don't like what they've become.

Haha well, that's definitely all pretty abstract, but one example of a time I used my journal for such a purpose happened only a few months ago. I was pretty confused following my break up with Kayla; I felt like I had completely lost my vivacity and all my excitement for life that I have always had. I read a lot of my old entries to get a sense of how I used to think and then I began to emulate those habits and thoughts that I wrote about in order to kind of revert to an older save file of myself. haha I hope that makes sense.

Anyway, I'm just really glad I made this journal in the first place, but I'm sad I haven't updated it since early 2010... almost two years :( I can't remember exactly why I stopped and why I stopped for so long. There had been a couple times before when I had failed to write entries for long periods of time, once at the beginning of my sophomore year, and then again midway through my junior year. It's a lame excuse, but I guess life just gets in the way sometimes! haha.

Anyway, 2012 is about to begin, and my New Years resolution is to start communicating better. It's already quite a challenge as it is given that I have Aspergers Autism, but I just tend to avoid contacting people to avoid the awkwardness, and I have a lot of trouble communicating how I feel about things, or what my opinion is. What I really think would be good for me, would be, you guessed it, to start blogging again! :) However, I think I've outgrown this website a little bit, particularly now that so many versatile social media platforms have come out now. I didn't even have a facebook when I began this website! Crazy! Shortly after I stopped updating this journal, I created a tumblr account and have actually posted on that very frequently, up to several posts a day for long stretches of time, over the past two years. It's just so easy to use!

So I decided to start making a tumblr theme that can serve as a continuation of this website, and I'm going to make it in the same style and everything! :) The URL is http://seriousligh.tumblr.com if you want to check that out. I may even transfer all of my old posts from this journal onto the tumblr and just have this website forward to the tumblr. How cool! Anyway, I can't wait to get back into the habit of blogging again! :)